If there’s one thing God has been opening my eyes to, it is the world and all its dirty things. As Christians we are easily warned to stay out of the places where you know you shouldn’t go. The places where evil lurks, the places where drugs and alcohol abound, the places where homosexuals or any other person that doesn’t look like us abides. There is a wrong in being raised to believe this statement. I was raised to believe this lie my whole life and grew up within the church walls and staying inside the church walls was the safest place to be. I’m a very emotional person, I’m the guy who cries for every movie whether tragedy or happy story. But, the problem that lies with us is that a lot of listen to one of the most known emotions, fear. Fear has been around for a very long time. A lot of us confuse conviction with fear. Conviction is a warning love sign from God preparing you to keep yourself aware of the enemy that is near. Fear is an emotion. It is an emotion that stops you from going into the unknown because you just don’t know what can happen. It is an emotion that we give into because it just makes sense with our human thinking. But, everything about our Christian faith is not supposed to make sense. That is why we rely on one true key to our lives, faith. Okay, so now that I explained that; let me get to what I’m really trying to say. The dirty places. The dirty world. A lot of us preach that we are to abstain and rid ourselves from such places and such friends but, what if we’re looking at it wrong? What I mean is now that we have God it doesn’t mean that we have to choose to stay from the unclean things but what it truly means is that the unclean things no longer have a hold over us. Why do we choose to separate ourselves from what and whom God wants us to minister to? Yes, we are no longer sinners but, it doesn’t mean that we must choose to separate ourselves from the people that need Him, sinners. If the LIGHT of the world now lives inside you, why haven’t you allowed Him to shine? Light can only shine in dark places. We have allowed darkness to look like it is stronger than light when it is not and the enemy is loving it. Yet, we can change that. We can now walk into the dirtiest room and not be affected by it. W’eve been empowered, not disabled. A lot of us choose to abstain from the dirty places because we are afraid that in the process we might get stained. When in fact you’ve been empowered to change the atmosphere when you enter into such a place and make it clean by the one who lives inside you. It’s time we stop fearing the “dirty” world and allow ourselves to see the beauty that God sees. We have allowed “religion” to take place in our heart rather than real love. Let’s get rid of fear and let it be behind us so that we run into this world with everything we have and the love of God can be demonstrated where fear hasn’t allowed others to go. Let’s walk into the bars and sit down with the drunks, let’s go into the clubs and see healing take place, let’s walk among the lost and embrace with them who God really is. I’m not saying to attack them with a gospel down their throats but, what I’m saying is let’s go into all the world and just do as Jesus did, love. It’s time that we do the dirty things for the sake of the world. Beloved, will you go?
I heard of two different pastors who recently committed suicide this week and last week. It saddens my heart to know that these kind of things are happening today. The problem with pastors today is that they fall under so much pressure and think they have to be perfect for their congregation. But, if they don’t ever talk to someone about their own problems they will become an easy target for the enemy. You try to look strong when you’re so weary and tired. You put a smile on your face when some of you are broken inside. If there’s anything that you need to be reminded about its this…You are HUMAN. You’re not any different from us. If you failed and messed up, I understand the issues that can arise with others in church but why preach about God’s grace and mercy for our lives when you can’t forgive yourself or your own congregation won’t even give it to you but instead we as a church go to the extremes for such pastors and leaders to be sat down for disciplinary action whenever they make a mistake. It doesn’t make sense why we would hear so much about the love and restoration Jesus has to offer; when we can’t offer it back to you when you make a human mistake just like we would. The church needs to know that pastors are people too. They face sufferings in this life as well. They can face temptations that we do. Pastors, you are not perfect and I’m sorry that the Church makes you feel like you have to be. It is not your job to look super strong and stable before your congregation. As a pastor you are just to point us to our main shepherd, God. Let’s not forget about all the amazing leaders that God used in the Bible. Such as Moses, who was a stutterer and fell short and disobeyed God or David who was also used to lead God’s people and committed adultery. After all these great leaders failed God; did God set them aside for a later season and take their calling away? No. He continued to use them and allowed His grace and mercy to be shown through humans he admired and loved. Where did we come up with the agenda that if you screw up as a leader you should be set aside temporary or forever? God has never worked that way. But instead God allowed for His mercy to triumph over His children’s mistakes so that His glory could be demonstrated. We need to be taught what God’s grace and mercy looks like again. We don’t need to see that you’re pretending to have it all together when you’re not. You need help just as much as we do. So please, cut yourself some slack and take the pressures off of your life that many of you put on and show that you’re in need of His workmanship as well. Somewhere down the line we got it wrong and allowed judgment to step foot inside the Church; the place where judgement never even belonged in the first place. We fear judgement. We don’t admit it, but we do. Instead of allowing fear to hold you back from truly facing your struggles overcome it by taking a step to talk someone you trust about your weaknesses, your struggles, or any things you just might have made a natural mistake on. Don’t let this “perfect” figure requirement allow you to truly miss it all and the point of your calling. In order for God to fully be strong in us He said we were going to be weak. Don’t be afraid to be weak. Grace is revealed through brokenness and its okay to be broken because it is then that God is truly at work in your life. The enemy is taking away our biggest advocates because he has lied to them and made them think they needed to be better. The message of the Bible has always been love, grace, and forgiveness. It’s the message you share with us every Sunday and I’m thankful for your devotion. God loves you and needs you to further advance His kingdom purposes but, in doing so don’t forget about yourself. We are all in desperate need of God’s grace. I’m just sorry that the Church hasn’t shown it to you like we should. It’s time we change that.
With much love,
We all have a huge longing to be known. We all are searching to be seen and be captured by someone. In reality, a lot of us are just wanting someone to pay attention to what we are worth. We want someone to see the greatness that we are capable of. We want someone to know our talents and gifts and how good we are at dancing, acting, writing, and just doing the things we love. The whole world is on a journey to want to be known. We always wish that someone would just click with us, that someone would just get what we see. What if after all this longing that we have just for someone to understand us, there actually was? What if we have chosen to ignore the fact that the one who created us actually knew us from the beginning? I mean think about it. We put ourselves out sometimes trying our best to make others understand what is going on inside our hearts. We try to make ourselves feel better by saying well, I have a best friend I can talk to or a spouse that I can talk to about this kind of stuff. But, do they always know what’s going on inside your heart, soul and mind? Our hearts can hold a deep ocean of secrets and there are some things that some of us never dare to speak of because we’re afraid the world won’t understand. I have news for you, God does. He knows and He understands it all. We are told by Him that He knit us and created us in His image. Beloved, He took time on you. Not all of us are the same and its obvious there are over billions, if not even trillions of people walking on the face of this planet and they are all different but all made in the exact same image of God. We each have different likes and dislikes. What if the journey to try to find someone else understand you was meant to be the journey of discovering and knowing that no one ever would but, God? W are each meant to journey and discover new and wonderful things and to live life out loud and to the fullest but, there’s a longing in our hearts that no one else can fill but, the creator of the one who made creativity in the first place. Don’t allow yourself to go on searching and stressing yourself out trying to make others understand you and there’s beauty in just knowing that some people never will get you. As humans, we are always seeking out to find something to satisfy us and God knew that about us since the beginning. He knew we’d be the kind of people that would love to play hide and seek. The good thing about God’s hide and seek is that once you find Him, you realize He was the one seeking you out in the first place to show you that you always belonged with Him. That is why nothing else makes sense in the end but Him and that is why our souls are not content until we know who we have always been in His eyes. The main goal of this journey of life from God for us and in order for us to fully live is to know this, and that is that you are understood. You are valued. You are loved. You have always been recognized and nothing is more satisfying than you truly knowing that you are fully and thoroughly known by a good and beautiful God and He gets you.
I know it’s been awhile since I’ve written a new post but, I’ve been on a crazy path lately. One is that I got sick but, much better now. There have been a lot of things that God has been working in me with and it surprises me as to why He would even try to work in me. I haven’t been obedient to my King I’ve slipped and I’ve sinned and I have failed Him multiple times. Once you allow a hint of sin in the devil will come and take charge and place you as his victim IF you let him. You see for most of my young years being from when I was born to about 16 I learned about all the wonders of God and how He sent His son for me. But, as I got older it was then that I really began to realize what the definition of sin Is. I understood what the sacrifice of Jesus meant. I was finally understanding what His cross did for me and what it truly meant but, because I had sinned against Him horribly but, that is a testimony in itself that I will share someday. The reason why I speak of my young years is because I”m not too far from my 24th birthday and I started to think to myself of all the mess that God has put up with and its been only 24 years yet, my goodness am I stubborn. I know I’m not the only one but, I’ll admit it I am one stubborn man! When it comes to my relationship with my Father. If He says don’t worry, I’ll worry. If He says be calm, I’m unsettled. If He says I love you, I’ll say “But, how?!” Yet, the Father being a Father loves me despite my arrogance and says He loves me and I really am coming to understand it. His love. It’s so rich, refreshing, beautiful and unending. He really does love me. He really does love you. Now, I’ve struggled with a lot of things believe me! But, despite all my lying, breaking promises, finding my identity, running to my past, right there at the end always is a Father saying I LOVE YOU. I can’t believe how profound this love is that He would love me a sinner in need of a savior. But, then I remember Romans 5:8 “While we were STILL yet sinners, Christ died for us”. He died for the prostitute who still gives in thinking no one will ever truly love her when He truly does, He died for the single mother who is struggling to make ends meet, when He’s already provided for her. He died for the lesbian who finds her love in other women when her real man is just a prayer away. He died for us. We are sinners and the truth is we’re screw ups let’s not pretend like the pharisee’s did. He knows it too. He knows we would constantly mess up but, at the end of it He said “You are worth it.” Beloved, you are worth it. If you have fallen His grace is there and He’s not pointing the finger at you saying you screwed up again?! No, that’s not how Papa works. There are many of you who are not running to Him because you are ashamed but, the truth is where He is there is no shame. Run to Him, admit you screwed up, and keep running the race. It’s not over until God says so. I pray you’re encouraged with this. He’s working in me every day and I believe He has a purpose for me and for you. We are loved and there’s no greater love I have ever known. The best is still yet, to come. Don’t rush the process because the process is what makes us to look like Him. I know that when its all said and done and God has finished His work with me here on earth I want Him to be able to look at me and say “In you I am well pleased and you look like Me!” So I understand all the trials, the pain, the valleys, and the brokenness that’s all part of His process of molding me into who I am supposed to be in His eyes and all though it is hard for this stubborn man to see what He sees I know that He sees me to be His best workmanship. Don’t stop believing, don’t stop pressing through. You are going to make it and you are going to see that God will come through because it all comes back to main foundation of it all and that is knowing that God does truly love you.
I love you but, He loves you more!
Agustin Olvera (a screw up whom God loves dearly & its more than He will ever know)
I’m going to start off by being completely honest with you, I need to trust Jesus better. I have been learning many things from my Father and one of the main things that I have come to understand is that He just wants to love me because He enjoys it. I am a work in progress and let’s face it I know we all are, but there are some things I’ve noticed with us Christians and its that we make things so difficult. As Christians I’ve heard many people say being a Christian is the hardest thing you could ever do over and over again but, what if its not? I’ll tell you why, saying that being a Christian is the hardest thing to do is like saying walking with Jesus is a burden in itself. Our walk with God isn’t demanding because He really does love us and it’s our choice whether we want to love Him back or not. We make things hard, not God. I mean really look at it, God in all His glorious splendor controls all the world and everything in it and when He says trust me, we still look at what the outcome might be if we do. We still get paralyzed in fear wondering if trusting Him is the safest thing to do when in fact it really is. He holds tomorrow already and knows what’s up ahead yet, we & (myself included) think it might not work out the way it should. You’re going to have come to the realization of knowing that things are not always going to go your way and most of the time things don’t go your way is because God in His mercy and grace is saving you for something better. However we don’t think so, I’m done with being selfish and saying do it my way God! No, that’s not the way it was suppose to work. We can’t argue with the potter when all we see is His hands working and He truly sees the final masterpiece. We think being a Christian is hard only because it gets in the way of what we want, when what we want is nothing in comparison to what He has.There are endless people who literally want to be martyrs for Christ and are just willing to die in honor of His name and we think trusting Him with our “staying alive” future is the hardest thing we could possibly do. We need to wake up. God had your best interest in mind and He knows every single one of your desires so get rid of the fear and trust Him. Trust Him with whatever or wherever He wants you to go because loving God shouldn’t be a hard thing, we make it hard. Its a love that should genuinely being flowing inside the well of your heart and soul. If you need help to love Him better then just ask Him. I know that I have gotten in the way of what my Father knows is best for me because it would be better this way when it’s not. Listen, God loves you and He is not going to fail you. Just because others leaders, loved ones have doesn’t mean He will. Open up your heart to Him, it’s going to the best thing you could ever do and I encourage you to do it. Trust the all knowing God with your unknowing future. It’s not the hardest thing when you know He can’t fail you.You’re going to be okay. In fact, you’re going to be more than okay you’re going to shine in all His brilliance and look back at this day and say “Wow, I can’t believe I ever doubted You.” Just trust Him.
With love I love you all beloved ones,
So let’s start with my mind, we all know that the mind is the biggest battle we will ever face and it is not with angels, demons or any of that sort but, it is in our mind that we face a major battle. We are in a warfare beloved, and I have fallen victim to the enemy keeping me from reaching my true potential because of my unstable mind. But, the word of God tells us this simple truth in Romans 12:2 “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is his good, pleasing and perfect will.” There’s something remarkable in this scripture that God has shown me and I believe it’s what’s going to change everything about me and my destiny. In the scripture reference above, it says “be transformed by the renewing of your mind” Notice one word, “Renewing” it didn’t say our mind was automatically renewed. This truth can help change everything about the way you think. It is not God’s job in one instant to renew our mind, it is ours. But, He also didn’t leave us hanging with no direction. He gave us His word to renew it in and His promises of life to be our anchor in times where we feel shakened. So I’m in this season, I’m letting go of my wavering mind and learning to rest in His constant peace. You want another known fact to help you have a victorious mindset? In 1 Corinthians 2:16 it says “Who can know the LORD’s thoughts? Who knows enough to teach him?” But we understand these things, for we have the mind of Christ.” There it is, I’ll say it again MIND OF CHRIST. Your mind is no longer your mind anymore. You act, speak, and think like your Father and it His desire that you look more like Him but, in order to do that you have train your mind to be renewed. Ask God for help. I sure did, and I wasn’t ashamed of telling my King that I needed it. He’s helping me become more like Him everyday and yes I know I have a huge destiny and great purpose for this life of mine, yet I must remember not to forget that in order to get there, everyday I must learn to understand that I’m being molded and shaped by my potter’s hands to look less like me and more like Him. He loves me. That’s the greatest truth and to also know that He loves me in my screw ups and my failures too is even more amazing. I love my Father and I’m glad I’m in this process because I know He’s just shaping me into what He already He sees me as. You are in a process as well beloved and I encourage you to press on and rest in the knowing that He has you and will come through for you. Faith isn’t simple but, knowing that no matter what you can’t see up ahead and still believing that it will come is what makes it easier. We are all in this mind improvement process but, don’t worry you’re obviously not alone. Just remember that you already have the victory and that during this time of construction, beauty is always on the horizon. Let your mind finally become His and surrender it to Him fully. You don’t have to fight the battles that He has already won. He already said your mind is His so why don’t you finally give it to Him?
WIth love I love you all,
God really has tugged my heart to look like His heart and with that comes my eyes seeing what He want His church to really look like. I’ve had some struggles and my goodness I’ve had some breakdowns but, one thing that I learned from an amazing man of God Lou Engle, was that despite our failures God’s calling on your life will always outweigh your failure. So I’ve been on this crazy journey of learning what it is to trust God and believe He has what is best for me and I’m still in that process but, my faith is not what it would have looked like years ago. I always felt like had to press through for God’s love as if I had to earn His longing when in reality He had always been longing for my heart and all I had to do was step in. So now here I am, allowing my heart to become more like HIs and I must say I was scared in the beginning but, oh how beautiful it is to know what hurts Him and moves HIm at every moment. Beloved, I know that we hear over and over again that God wants to knows us more but, in reality He already knows everything about you. The truth is that He wants you to know Him more. Where you’re longing so deep inside like an empty well and your thirst can’t be satisfied by nothing else but, His refreshing liquid love. Listen to me, He knows your heart better than you can ever know it yourself, so why not trust Him with it knowing that He won’t ever break it? His plans since the first day man arrived on this earth was just to simply love and walk with us but, sin & religion came somewhere down that line and corrupted this pure love for us. Stop working for His love and start living in it. Just say “God here I am, a sinful broken man longing to run yet struggling to stand and I want to be lovesick for You. Will You help me?” It doesn’t displease the Father’s heart when all you want to do is love HIm and be taught by Him how to do it better. So what are you waiting for? Begin your love affair and remember that He’s the man in the relationship and that you are the bride. It is the man’s duty in the relationship with His bride to love her and to make sure that He goes after her and make it known that He really truly loves her. Fall in love with Him and know that He chases after your heart but, will you finally chase after His?
With love, I love you all